Love, Naziela :)

assalammualaikum! last few days as i was browsing thru my twitter, suddenly i bumped into a thread which talked about love story. i wouldnt wanna talk about it but i'll share with you guys the message which she wanted to convey ; stop finding for mr. right. pray for the best and the right guy will surely come at the right time. a part from that, one of her tweets said rather than you praying for the person whom you like to be your mr. right, it's better for you to pray in general because who knows you'll get someone far better off your crush? that... rendered me speechless. totally. imagine, for three years i have been praying for H to be my mr. right, for three years, i have been hoping for him, for three years, i have closed all the doors at all angles of my heart because i plan to stay loyal. Loyal.. to him. the one who doesnt even know my existence in this filthy world. very, funneyh, naziela. hence, i decided to stop. i chose to go with the flow an...

" Her heart was a secret garden, the walls were very high " Why must it be was? Why must it be were? Why must the sentence in past tense? Why is it not in present tense? Why? Those questions kept floating in mind, asking myself, why past and not present. But then, my inner side answered " Because you were once a strong girl, but ever since you fell for someone, you've changed to a complete stranger. Your current personality is the opposite of the real you " *Shhh!* No words could be said as a respond to such answer. I cried, if and only if tears in blood exist then at that particular moment my tears would be in blood, not those crystal clear kinda tears. In fact, typing all these out makes me burst to tears. I wonder why must I change to someone who is weak inside out? People complimented me for being so brave, and somehow I always act like a warrior in front of everyone. But honestly, I'm just a normal girl who would easily drown in a sea of sadness.  ...

Iam a clingy type of person. When iam closed to someone, trust me, wherever i go, i only want that particular someone to stay by my side. I would solely depend on him or her only, trust him or her with all my heart. I wouldnt want anyone else. I know it's not good actually for somehow at some point i might get hurt real bad due to this. Anyway, i thought when i enter matriks, i can never meet someone who can make me becomes an overly-attached person. Well, unfortunately i thought wrong. I was or maybe still am close to this one person in my class. Like i said in previous post, i prefer befriending guys. Iam much more comfortable with them as i grew up with only one friend who is Mamat. So yeah that i think explains everything why i always stick to my guy friends instead of girls. Ok back to the track. He acts like a big bro to me. Everytime i wanted to hide my pain and sorrow, trust me, he will always know it which means i can never hide and idk why. Dia ada kuasa sakti ke lol. Ok...

I undeniably love waking up as early as 1 or 2 and sometimes at 3 am since i would get to settle loads of things. Study, date with Allah, and even stalk my fav person on earth so far hehe. You know the moment when you are so tired with this world, you just want to detach yourself with everything and relax by spending time complaining to Allah regarding what had happened even though obviously HE is all-knowing. Means even if we feel lazy to express them out, HE still knows, regardless. Three things which would definitely boost my study mood : - date with Allah - telling mommy ayah everything. I would call either one of them everyday(it depends. Sometimes dad sometimes mommy). Because i know whatever thing which i share, they will give advices, mostly asking me to be patient, dont give up, work smarter, think about whats the good in everything iam doing etc. Ohmy, my heart hurts. Missing them badly! - stalking H . For those who read my previous post definitely know who H is haha. My...

Standing at the corner of my room, looking at the magnificent view of the sky from the window, imagining what i might be doing if iam home makes me misses home real bad. I miss the moment when i could literally relax without thinking of integration, first order, biodiversity etc. No, i am not physically fatigue to be honest. Iam more to mentally exhausted. Each day and night i would stay up to finish up all the assignments, need to constantly be prepared if suddenly lecturers plan to do quizzes, must always one step ahead from the others in terms of studies. It's tiring, undoubtedly. Worst is when you study solely because of wanting to get excellent grades in exams. That itself doubles up your tiredness because it's obvious enough that youre not sincere. Youre studying because of grades? Then, will you gain anything? I bet after exams, most of what we have learned vanish in a blink of an eye if we study without pure intention in trying to seeking new knowledge. How sad. " ...

It was quite a journey of hell for my sem 1. I was sleepless for some nights, had migraine, worst period pain ever, loads of assignments, bla bla bla. But alhamdulillah i managed to brave through it with complaints of course haha. I was fatigue at all aspects ok! What do you expect. So is there any free spa service? I would like to step in to relax hehe. We(matriks students) had our 3 weeks of break before we enter sem 2. I didnt waste time bro sis. My term of wasting time means i literallyyyyyyyy rest. I touched no books except for love novels, played fon most of the time, onlining chit chatting. Y'know the kind of activities which teenagers would usually do. Everyone calls it *Procrastinating* aherher. I enjoyed my holidays nonetheless eventho sometimes boredom strikes pfft. So yeah. That was like few weeks ago? Tonight, Here i am, again, stuck with countless assignments. Iam greatful with my life because i honestly love leading a busy life. I love being busy. I wont be having ...

To repeat the same mistake is not as good a everyone might think. No, not good at all. But sometimes you dont even pray for it to happen twice. You tried, you worked hard, but it happened, regardless. What iam trying to say is that, again, the thing that i wanted the most for sem 1 remained as a dream. One of the dreams which i can no longer achieve, can no longer long for. The moment when i failed to put on a smile on my parents' face due to my spm results, i wished to never ever repeat it! Never! Hence, when i entered matriks, obviously i struggled like crazy to get 4flat. I sacrificed so many things indeed, less hour of sleeping, no fon while studying, no lovey dovey stuffs, bla bla bla. My eyebags were beyond words! My mind was fatigue but hey, to be a successful person is not easy. You want it, therefore you must work for it! Sadly, Allah said " 3.6 is the best for Naziela Al Atiq bt. Aljeffry " I didnt cry at first. I smiled, i was grateful with the results that...

Assalammualaikum! Do you know that those who are born in june are surprisingly a great flirt, very attractive etc. HAHAHAHAHAHA WHAT EVEN! Its 3am now and iam dealing with i-miss-him-but kinda feeling now UGH! Initially, i refused to share on how i fell in love with this one guy(lets call him, H shall we?) *chuckles* but today idk, suddenly i miss him so much to the extent i feel like i wanna fly all the way to the place where he studies now just to look at his face without his knowing. Oh wait, he doesnt even know my existence in this world. Lol over kan? But thats the reality *sigh* So, put aside introduction and lets straight away start with the first point! Ehehehe. Honestly, i may look like a playgirl(or maybe not) because dude, i never meant to flirt(unfortunately,) guys misunderstood with my actions. No, i dont " hai awak! Watpe tuuuuuuu? " with guys. Iam rather strict, literally. Cuma entahlah. Guys memang suka perasan or apa? Pfffft. Besides, i was traumatized by m...

" Adik, what's your dream car? "- mommy " Atiq suka Axia! comel je, murah pulak tu " mom laughed at my answer. she never expected me to say Axia, i mean of all cars weh, why Axia kan? but that's me. a girl who is a total noob when it comes to technology. even my own sis wants Beetle and my bro? he likes motorbike so i am not sure what's the name. Harley Davidson, maybe? somehow, i pity my future hubs for marrying someone who doesnt bother about whats happening to this world, neither technology nor politic etc. i just dont care. i am more to my own world, i enjoy talking to myself since i was really young, writing what i have been through all this while in a diary but now, blog la obviously. when my bro offered me his iPhone, i rejected. i am not into gadjets too. as long as it can be used, i am completely okay with it. including laptop! i dont mind. unlike my siblings, they'll be doing some research regarding a few laptops which are famous and...