Past tense

" Her heart was a secret garden, the walls were very high "

Why must it be was? Why must it be were? Why must the sentence in past tense? Why is it not in present tense? Why?

Those questions kept floating in mind, asking myself, why past and not present. But then, my inner side answered

" Because you were once a strong girl, but ever since you fell for someone, you've changed to a complete stranger. Your current personality is the opposite of the real you "

*Shhh!*
No words could be said as a respond to such answer. I cried, if and only if tears in blood exist then at that particular moment my tears would be in blood, not those crystal clear kinda tears. In fact, typing all these out makes me burst to tears. I wonder why must I change to someone who is weak inside out? People complimented me for being so brave, and somehow I always act like a warrior in front of everyone. But honestly, I'm just a normal girl who would easily drown in a sea of sadness.  I would weep when no one is looking, I shout my heart out when no one is in my surrounding. How fragile can I be...

And now, when I realise why I've changed to a whole new person, that's mainly because of the pain I needed to deal with throughout my life up till now. The pain changes me to someone who's more sensitive, an introvert and less sense of humor.

I wouldn't want to blame others as Dr. Tengku Asmadi once said

" Blame yourself first before you blame others. Then only you'll learn something "

So, alhamdulillah. I never regret the mistakes which I've committed thus causing me to go through so many obligations. Tapi it hurts me when I notice I've become more fragile than I supposed to be. Sedangkan my dream is to be a warrior.

Seems like there's a new task for me ;

_beAWarrior_
No matter how rough the problems are, weep not. Stay cool and awesome! insyaAllah :)

AssalammualaikumWbT.

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