3.6

To repeat the same mistake is not as good a everyone might think. No, not good at all. But sometimes you dont even pray for it to happen twice. You tried, you worked hard, but it happened, regardless.

What iam trying to say is that, again, the thing that i wanted the most for sem 1 remained as a dream. One of the dreams which i can no longer achieve, can no longer long for. The moment when i failed to put on a smile on my parents' face due to my spm results, i wished to never ever repeat it! Never! Hence, when i entered matriks, obviously i struggled like crazy to get 4flat. I sacrificed so many things indeed, less hour of sleeping, no fon while studying, no lovey dovey stuffs, bla bla bla. My eyebags were beyond words! My mind was fatigue but hey, to be a successful person is not easy. You want it, therefore you must work for it!

Sadly, Allah said

" 3.6 is the best for Naziela Al Atiq bt. Aljeffry "

I didnt cry at first. I smiled, i was grateful with the results that i got because i strongly believe that Allah is the best planner of all. He's keeping something special for me. He doesnt want me to enjoy the sweetness of 4flats first, He wants to surprise with something which is much more awesome! But, the moment when i thought of mommy ayah wa wan and my family, my heart hurts, badly. I got 2 missed calls from my sis alone. That itself caused me to burst into tears. I could say nothing but sorry to mommy when she called asking me

" dapat berapa "

The feeling was awful when you didnt manage to make your parents proud. It felt horrible when your mom had no interest to talk to you once she heard your results. It. Hurts. I smiled upon hearing her respond. I know, no matter how hard i have tried, i need to try harder. No matter how many hours i had sacrificed before, i need to sacrifice more, no matter how many times i have cried due to tiredness, i need to cry more because, to be a successful person is not easy. Iam not gifted. I came from a family who need to work hard in order to be the best among the best. Without studying, we might go astray thus our life definitely would be in jeopardy. So yeah.

" atiq, Allah tengok usaha bukan results. Don't give up. Allah knows whats the best for you "

Work harder and smarter. May Allah ease, inshaa Allah

Assalammualaikum :)

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Hint? or just, Dream?

assalammualaikum! last few days as i was browsing thru my twitter, suddenly i bumped into a thread which talked about love story. i wouldnt wanna talk about it but i'll share with you guys the message which she wanted to convey ; stop finding for mr. right. pray for the best and the right guy will surely come at the right time. a part from that, one of her tweets said rather than you praying for the person whom you like to be your mr. right, it's better for you to pray in general because who knows you'll get someone far better off your crush? that... rendered me speechless. totally. imagine, for three years i have been praying for H to be my mr. right, for three years, i have been hoping for him, for three years, i have closed all the doors at all angles of my heart because i plan to stay loyal. Loyal.. to him. the one who doesnt even know my existence in this filthy world. very, funneyh, naziela. hence, i decided to stop. i chose to go with the flow an...
Read more

Rindu Atok n arwah Mak.

Image
Assalammualaikum. Saye rindukan Atok n arwah mak sayeeee! :'( Sobb.. Sob.. Although saye macam tak manje sangat dengan atok saye, but still, saye saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayang sangat atok saye! Sape yang tak sayangkan atok mereka, betul tak? O.o" Last 2 weeks, atok pegi umrah. All my families hantar atok kat KLIA.Best kat KLIA! Althpugh dah banyak kali pegi, tapi sifat KEJAKUNAN saye still ade. Well, saye kan selenge siket. Hakhakhak! xD Macam-macam ragam manusia saye jumpe kat sane. Ade yang berfesyen, simple, kaya, sederhana, hensem, cantik n memacam lagi! ( Tak jage mate nampak Naziela? ) Oh Myyyyy ALLAH! :O Hehehe. Dok ah. Saye jage okay. Tapi kenkadang tu ade ar jugak terlajak pandang. Hahahaha. xD Pandang gitu-gitu je pun. Eh, dah meraban pulak. Okay, continue, lame jugaklah menunggu kat KLIA tu. Saye memain dengan cousin saye. Maklumlah, saye ni umur je 15 tahun. Tapi perangai.... Huh! MashaALLAH! Sebijik budak 5 tahun! Tak matangggggg. :O But seriously, do i look like I ...
Read more

"Infinity" remains forever!

Image
Assalammualaikum people! yes, imma weirdo. heh. well. i dont know why these few days i kept thinking of the memories that i had with my group members in Gen Y Camp which was held at the masjid two years ago. i remember vividly how we guys met, the way we introduced the name of our team to 300++ people and so on. the ice breaking part ya Allah hambar gileeeeee but at the end, it was indeed the best team i have ever had! oh and, is it weird when i say i miss the leader of my group? tak tipu weh. he taught me a lot of things especially when it comes to leadership. seriously, he has now change from someone who doesnt know the basic things about Islam to a guy who obviously has more knowledges about the beauty of islam compared to me. i mean, he is now one of the students in a maahad school ok. ya Rabbi! i admit it was my fault to easily judge him based on his appearance when we were about to choose someone to be the leader of Infinity (my group's name) i thought we might get last...
Read more