Love, Naziela :)

Assalammualaikum! i'm just wondering, what will you guys do when you guys are under depression? entah la. lately ni a lot of things in my mind. upcoming trial, folios, kawad bla bla bla and even family matters. rasa tak boleh cope. rasa lelah you know tahap yg you rasa " oh no man, i cant take it anymore " but you have to. you have no chance but to deal with all of them. damn exhausted when you are tired of school activities and then when you got back home, stress sebab banyak lg kerja tertunggak. contoh? lol sodai baju, angkat baju ohmyyyyyyy i just died! tp i can never say no because thats my job. i wouldnt want to see my mum suffer doing the house chores *sigh* but then like what Allahyarham Ahmad Ammar had said la kan, " Dunia ni tempat kita berpenat " yes. this filthy world is actually a place for us to work hard to achieve Jannah. ingat senang ke masuk syurga macam masuk wayang? beli tiket, popcorn etc pastu okay done! jom tengok movie! Hello people, ...

Everytime I close my eyes i see you in front of me I still can hear your voice calling out my name And I remember all the stories you told me I miss the time you were around  I miss the time you were around But I'm so grateful for every moment I spent with you Cause I know life wont last forever You went so soon, so soon You left so soon, so soon I have to move on  Cause i know it has been too long I've got to stop my tears keep my faith and be strong I'll try to take it all even though it's so hard I see you in my dreams but when i wake up you're gone Gone so soon Night and day i still feel you are close to me And i remember ypu in every prayer i make Every single day may you be shaded by HIS mercy But life is not the same and it will never be the same But I'm so thankful for every memories i shared with you Cause I know life wont last forever You went so soon, so soon You left so soon, so soon I have to move on  ...

I suddenly feel that im such a horrible person with an ugly personality and hideous attitudes. Ya Rabbi... Can i run away from everyone? I just feel like living in a place where I can be alone, my mind remains at ease. I just feel that I've done something awful to the people who know me before, now and in the future. I feel like the level of imaan is decreasing, I have no feelings towards anyone including my loved ones. I feel like my heart has gone to somewhere else. I dont feel sad when hardships approach me. I JUST DONT KNOW WHY IS THIS THING HAPPENING TO ME? I hate me. should i hate myself?

Assalammualaikum. so whats my last priority? Love yes love. I dont want to let myself involve in that thing. Because i know once i let myself in, it would be hard for me to escape from it since variety of feelings will fill my heart. i have read a lot of articles about this one lady. i literally admire her. how she makes herself strong infront of her son even though she is deeply broken inside. i dream to be that type of lady. a lady who doesnt want people to sympathize for what had happened, instead feel proud by the outstanding achievements that i have made after a huge problem came to my life. i want to learn on how to not depend too much on temporary love. humans can never fulfill their one promise that they have made to their loved ones. which is I will always be by your side fore ver . actually they dont. they die a few moments later. they left us here in this filthy world. so its clear enough that we should not put high hopes towards any living things. love is not everything...

Assalammualaikum! well this is year is indeed the toughest year ever for now la because before this i was not that busy to the extent i need to burn my midnight oil in order to finish all the homeworks given. Besides, I even need to finish the notes that I got from eheh secret lol and do some revision for the upcoming exam. so the thing is, i feel like shouting to the whole world and say " 24 HOURS ARE NOT ENOUGH! " Maybe yes for certain people because they know how to manage their time well. but i know too! i even have the timetable that tells what i should and should not do. i spend most of my time with books ya Rabbi too tooooo exhausted i kenot. I have never had an enough sleep since school session started which was 2 weeks ago. been sleeping early and woke up at 1 or 2 in the morning just to study and sometimes doing homeworks or notes. so dont ask me why my eyebags are getting sexier because obviously now you know the exact reason whyyyy! i have to run like a crazy g...

Assalammualaikum Hey guys! Since these few days i forbid myself from spending most of my time onlining any media social(s) that I have. So, i started watching movies which could motivate me to be a better girl in the future. And hahaha as expected the movies that i've watched so far are Sofia The First and Barbie (any barbie will do). You know in every episode there will be some lessons that you get to learn. Something that you might not know or maybe you've heard it before but yeah never give a damn of it lol. Anyway, alhamdulillah i managed to learn a lot like seriously a lot. Usually in every movies, the main character must show good examples to people so from that good attitudes i actually learn new things. K lets make this simple. I had just finished watching another movie. Ohorait, im not wasting my whole time watching movies okay. I created my daily timetable so that i will spend my time wisely and not gonna waste even a single second of it doing something unuseful in ...

Assalammualaikum Nowadays whenever it comes to spm, people will start to aim for straight A+. Yes i admit that i am one of them. But now when i think wisely, i should put my faith in Allah. Instead of me keep on studying for the straight A+, why not i study for the sake of HIM? To be someone who has a lot of knowledges in mind? Inshaa Allah. Yes it would be a great pleasure once you passed your spm with flying rainbow(lol more awesome i think compare to colours) anyway, indeed you will feel happy. But WHAT IF suddenly you didnt get what you want. I mean youve been studying from morning till night. You even burn your midnight oil. So,will you get mad? Will you scream to the whole world and say that you are not satisfied with your results? Wait waitttttttttt! Muhasabah yourself again. You live in this world with HIS wills. Whatever you do, semuanya dah ditetapkan oleh Allah. So dont you think your results pun sama jugak? Yes memang dah usaha segala tp kalau tetap tak dapat jugak, bukan ...