Lost

I suddenly feel that im such a horrible person with an ugly personality and hideous attitudes.

Ya Rabbi...

Can i run away from everyone? I just feel like living in a place where I can be alone, my mind remains at ease. I just feel that I've done something awful to the people who know me before, now and in the future. I feel like the level of imaan is decreasing, I have no feelings towards anyone including my loved ones. I feel like my heart has gone to somewhere else. I dont feel sad when hardships approach me.

I JUST DONT KNOW WHY IS THIS THING HAPPENING TO ME?

I hate me. should i hate myself?

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