Love, Naziela :)

Iam a clingy type of person. When iam closed to someone, trust me, wherever i go, i only want that particular someone to stay by my side. I would solely depend on him or her only, trust him or her with all my heart. I wouldnt want anyone else. I know it's not good actually for somehow at some point i might get hurt real bad due to this. Anyway, i thought when i enter matriks, i can never meet someone who can make me becomes an overly-attached person. Well, unfortunately i thought wrong. I was or maybe still am close to this one person in my class. Like i said in previous post, i prefer befriending guys. Iam much more comfortable with them as i grew up with only one friend who is Mamat. So yeah that i think explains everything why i always stick to my guy friends instead of girls. Ok back to the track. He acts like a big bro to me. Everytime i wanted to hide my pain and sorrow, trust me, he will always know it which means i can never hide and idk why. Dia ada kuasa sakti ke lol. Ok...

I undeniably love waking up as early as 1 or 2 and sometimes at 3 am since i would get to settle loads of things. Study, date with Allah, and even stalk my fav person on earth so far hehe. You know the moment when you are so tired with this world, you just want to detach yourself with everything and relax by spending time complaining to Allah regarding what had happened even though obviously HE is all-knowing. Means even if we feel lazy to express them out, HE still knows, regardless. Three things which would definitely boost my study mood : - date with Allah - telling mommy ayah everything. I would call either one of them everyday(it depends. Sometimes dad sometimes mommy). Because i know whatever thing which i share, they will give advices, mostly asking me to be patient, dont give up, work smarter, think about whats the good in everything iam doing etc. Ohmy, my heart hurts. Missing them badly! - stalking H . For those who read my previous post definitely know who H is haha. My...

Standing at the corner of my room, looking at the magnificent view of the sky from the window, imagining what i might be doing if iam home makes me misses home real bad. I miss the moment when i could literally relax without thinking of integration, first order, biodiversity etc. No, i am not physically fatigue to be honest. Iam more to mentally exhausted. Each day and night i would stay up to finish up all the assignments, need to constantly be prepared if suddenly lecturers plan to do quizzes, must always one step ahead from the others in terms of studies. It's tiring, undoubtedly. Worst is when you study solely because of wanting to get excellent grades in exams. That itself doubles up your tiredness because it's obvious enough that youre not sincere. Youre studying because of grades? Then, will you gain anything? I bet after exams, most of what we have learned vanish in a blink of an eye if we study without pure intention in trying to seeking new knowledge. How sad. " ...

It was quite a journey of hell for my sem 1. I was sleepless for some nights, had migraine, worst period pain ever, loads of assignments, bla bla bla. But alhamdulillah i managed to brave through it with complaints of course haha. I was fatigue at all aspects ok! What do you expect. So is there any free spa service? I would like to step in to relax hehe. We(matriks students) had our 3 weeks of break before we enter sem 2. I didnt waste time bro sis. My term of wasting time means i literallyyyyyyyy rest. I touched no books except for love novels, played fon most of the time, onlining chit chatting. Y'know the kind of activities which teenagers would usually do. Everyone calls it *Procrastinating* aherher. I enjoyed my holidays nonetheless eventho sometimes boredom strikes pfft. So yeah. That was like few weeks ago? Tonight, Here i am, again, stuck with countless assignments. Iam greatful with my life because i honestly love leading a busy life. I love being busy. I wont be having ...