Give up?

Assalammualaikum.




i am doomed. seriously. completely. totally. this year is the toughest year ever! been studying all day long but results oh my Allah i feel like crying whenever i think of it. feel like bursting. feel like exploding. but like always, Allah knows best. HE is All-Knowing.

bismillah...

this is the first time aku experience turun kelas. before this alhamdulillah dari kecik until form 4 remain first class but it is very sad when tahun terakhir aku digelar pelajar(nextyear), aku masuk kelas kedua because of my final results yg sangat Ya Rabbi :'( i know i cant cry because it's my fault anyway. usaha tak cukup, leka. macam mana nak berjaya. banyak lagha, lalai. Allahu rabbi. tp bak kata peribahasa

" menyesal dahulu pendapat menyesal kemudian tidak berguna "

so i force myself to smile even though it is damn hard. susah. banyak sangat jatuh tahun ni. penat asyik nak bangkit. lelah. semput. sesak nafas. tp, disebalik kesusahan tu Allah ada. aku tahu, Allah ada. setiap kali jatuh, aku tertanya tanya apa salah aku? usaha tak cukup ke? lepas muhsabah, aku sedar, banyak sebenarnya kekurangan dalam diri aku. semenjak dapat straight As dalam PMR(alhamdulillah), aku mula lalai. take things for granted. belajar everyday pun maca tak ikhlas. sambil belajar, sambil main fon. 



MACAM MANA ILMU NAK MASUK????


sometimes i feel like giving up. for me there's nothing left. drop class is like i am half alive half dead.  nyawa nyawa ikan. feel like shouting to the whole world especially when i realise that this thing could make mummy and ayah rasa kecewa. i mean mak ayah siapa je tak sedih and hampa kan? so as a daughter or maybe a son takkan tak timbul rasa sedih. but then, aku terhenti. give up? setelah penat lelah aku selama ni gapai keputusan yg cemerlang dalam every exam and setakat tahun ni je Allah uji markah teruk, terus nak give up? tak rasa stewpeed ke? Allah uji hanya sekejap terus rasa nak putus asa. habis sepanjang nikmat Allah beri dulu? 



NAZIELA KAU DAH NAIK BANYAK TANGGA. JATUH PADA CERTAIN TANGGA TU NORMAL. BANGKIT!



nasihat tu, ye nasihat tu buat aku sedar. banyak tangga telah aku daki. mana boleh patah balik. meskipun perjalanan masih jauh, Allah ada disisi untuk terus bantu hambaNya yg tak pernah kenal erti putus asa. sometimes Allah lebih tahu apa yg kita rasa. malah bende ni terbukti dalam kitab suci Al-Quran. (2:216)





mungkin, no taknak mungkin. Allah tahu kelas pertama tak bagus. takut riak or maybe terus hanyut dalam dunia fantasi and malas belajar so on. so Allah knock our head untuk sedar and kembali ke alam reality. oh come on! ujian Allah beri tu sedikit. bangkit. penat itu harus. nak tuntut ilmu? kene berkorban. dan apabila dah berkorban, jd kan pengorbanan itu satu benda yg manis dengan cara dapat keputusan yg cemerlang inshaAllah. 



NEVER. EVER. THINK. OF. GIVING. UP. BE. STRONG!

SO NAZIELA AL-ATIQ BINTI ALJEFFRY, setiap jatuh itu pasti sakit. dan mungkin ada luka yg wujud. tp, disebalik hujan ada pelangi kan? begitu juga sakit. tapi itu bukan tiket untuk kau surrender, angkat bendera putih. tu tandanya kau kene bangun. beranikan diri untuk tempuh lagi jalan tu walapun perit sebab Allah ada. Allah sentiasa ada. langkah pertama tu penting. jangan takut. masyarakat cemuh? jangan ambil peduli. kata Allah tu lebih penting. mayAllahEase *smile*




well, here some pictures of dont give up quotes. to those who are in the same boat with me, WORK HARDER yeah!














yours sincerely,
Atiq.

Salam 'alaykum .






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