Love, Naziela :)

Assalammualaikum people! yes, imma weirdo. heh. well. i dont know why these few days i kept thinking of the memories that i had with my group members in Gen Y Camp which was held at the masjid two years ago. i remember vividly how we guys met, the way we introduced the name of our team to 300++ people and so on. the ice breaking part ya Allah hambar gileeeeee but at the end, it was indeed the best team i have ever had! oh and, is it weird when i say i miss the leader of my group? tak tipu weh. he taught me a lot of things especially when it comes to leadership. seriously, he has now change from someone who doesnt know the basic things about Islam to a guy who obviously has more knowledges about the beauty of islam compared to me. i mean, he is now one of the students in a maahad school ok. ya Rabbi! i admit it was my fault to easily judge him based on his appearance when we were about to choose someone to be the leader of Infinity (my group's name) i thought we might get last

Salam alaik! It's 2:15 am and i cant sleep! Oh Allah, my eyes.... worse than pandasssss in the entire universe! Anyway, i feel like talking about mat sallehs today. So, em, bear with me eh! Hehe  Orait. Let, us, start! To be frank, whenever mat salleh(s) walk in front of me or behind or whatever, ya Rabbi... i cannot resist! It is like, brosis, i have found the chosen one hahahahaha. Well, i cant easily share with you guys the reasons why i choose mat salleh(s) over malay guys. Too personal to be told. And maybe the explanation could hurt anyone of you(malay guys). Let it remains secret. Oh for your information, my so-cannot-resist can be clearly seen when i was in Cameron Highland last month. Tak tipu! Heh. Ok. At that time, I was lining up with my mom at Sungai Pallas to buy some bread and tea for family. So while waiting for our turn, i turned around to look at the breath-taking scenery(it was soooo serene!) until suddenly my eyes caught this hot mat salleh standing behind

dearest aisyah yg cute, this entry is for you hehe (akak malas nak tulis or taip and print sebab lately ni akak busy) enjoy reading! " wa ssalam alaik. nice to meet you too, Aisyah (: first of all, thankyou for the letter first time dapat surat drpd junior lol. anyway, akak terus bg jawapan to all of your questions ye. sorry if akak straight to the point sgt. akak tak pandai nak bermadah or cakap belok belok. orait mari kita mula! actually, biodata kat blog akak tu dah lama. akak tak update pun lg. semuanya impian waktu akak form 1. but now, semua tu tak betul lol. manusia hanya merancang, Allah yg menentukan. kan? my ambition is to be an engineer inshaa Allah. akak tak pilih ustazah sebab pd akak, tak semestinya org tudung labuh atau menutup aurat secara sempurna kene jd seorg ustazah. even kerja as engineer pun boleh berdakwah. example, buat usrah antara teman sekerja and so on. lgsatu, akak tak suka mengajar sebab akak tak pandai mengajar hehe. next, tentang sek ijc. hon

Salam alayk! sorry for the sensored title hahahahaha malu kot nak taip secara obvious. so i made it in a proper way kah kah kah. anyway, you guys especially ladies faham kan whats p(squared)? it meansssss per *uh oh* pain sorry for acting innocent tp serious malu. okay okay cut the crap. so,  people who never knew how does it feels bila kene senggugut ni selalu tanya silly quests. such as, sakit or tak etc etc. i mean bro, the pain is INDESCRIBABLE okay! i'm not lying because every month i need to deal with the pain. it hurts to the extent you feel like cutting off your stomach and you would rather live with no stomach. it's not like a normal stomach ache which you can just sleep and by the time you wake up, the pain has gone. NO! sometimes this " p(squared) " will still remain even though you've slept almost 4 hours. shoot! andddd the most horrible part is when your uterus starts to contract masha Allah memang rasa nak guling guling. as if tho

Assalammualaikum so hey people, IT IS RAMADHAN! RAMADHAN KAREEM EVERYONE! yeah i know it's kinda too late for me to be excited about Ramadhan today as now we i mean the muslims have been fasting for 6 days, alhamdulillah ^^ anyway, i still feel excited! i cant help it hihihi. okay, as you all know when it comes to ramadhan, all the shaytans will be in the temporary jail. means no more shaytans in this world. if we see people do evil things, it's actually themselves who make that decision. they choose to commit sins. when i realise that fact, i muhasabah sekejap. rasa macam " asal aku rasa aku makin evil eh bila shaytan takde? " lol. maybe sebab aku lg evil dari devils? EH NA'UZUBILLAH! :O perasan tak, kalau kita buat jahat during Ramadhan means it's us yg jahat. we choose to do that thing. because no shaytans yang persuade kita to do so, kan? so to whom will we put our blame on? no one but yourself! andddd due to that, lets make this Ramadhan the

Assalammualaikum. wow i've not posted anything for quite a long time *aplause* anyway, HAPPY BITHDAY, NAZIELA! yes, alhamdulillah. today is my birthday wooohoooo! i cant put into words how i feel right now. happy, excited, scared etc etc. finally, i'm officially 17 kotttt. who would ever believe that one fact?! haha! even Aisya asked me "oh wait, you're now 17 or 7 ? " cisss aisya! lol maybe i act like a kid kot tak sedar diri dah tua kahkah but who cares kan? eheh ala lgpun still consider as young and dangerous right? hahahaha. by the way, i'm not hoping for luxurious presents, but the only thing that i want this year is happiness from people around me since i was under depression for months or maybe one whole month due to exams. so i want something that could make me smile. i dont mind if people forgot my birthday. as long as ALLAH knows, alhamdulillah. but somehow i am blessed to have such friends who remember your birthday, buy you presents. i NEVER e

Assalammualaikum! i'm just wondering, what will you guys do when you guys are under depression? entah la. lately ni a lot of things in my mind. upcoming trial, folios, kawad bla bla bla and even family matters. rasa tak boleh cope. rasa lelah you know tahap yg you rasa " oh no man, i cant take it anymore " but you have to. you have no chance but to deal with all of them. damn exhausted when you are tired of school activities and then when you got back home, stress sebab banyak lg kerja tertunggak. contoh? lol sodai baju, angkat baju ohmyyyyyyy i just died! tp i can never say no because thats my job. i wouldnt want to see my mum suffer doing the house chores *sigh* but then like what Allahyarham Ahmad Ammar had said la kan, " Dunia ni tempat kita berpenat " yes. this filthy world is actually a place for us to work hard to achieve Jannah. ingat senang ke masuk syurga macam masuk wayang? beli tiket, popcorn etc pastu okay done! jom tengok movie! Hello people,

Everytime I close my eyes i see you in front of me I still can hear your voice calling out my name And I remember all the stories you told me I miss the time you were around  I miss the time you were around But I'm so grateful for every moment I spent with you Cause I know life wont last forever You went so soon, so soon You left so soon, so soon I have to move on  Cause i know it has been too long I've got to stop my tears keep my faith and be strong I'll try to take it all even though it's so hard I see you in my dreams but when i wake up you're gone Gone so soon Night and day i still feel you are close to me And i remember ypu in every prayer i make Every single day may you be shaded by HIS mercy But life is not the same and it will never be the same But I'm so thankful for every memories i shared with you Cause I know life wont last forever You went so soon, so soon You left so soon, so soon I have to move on 

I suddenly feel that im such a horrible person with an ugly personality and hideous attitudes. Ya Rabbi... Can i run away from everyone? I just feel like living in a place where I can be alone, my mind remains at ease. I just feel that I've done something awful to the people who know me before, now and in the future. I feel like the level of imaan is decreasing, I have no feelings towards anyone including my loved ones. I feel like my heart has gone to somewhere else. I dont feel sad when hardships approach me. I JUST DONT KNOW WHY IS THIS THING HAPPENING TO ME? I hate me. should i hate myself?

Assalammualaikum. so whats my last priority? Love yes love. I dont want to let myself involve in that thing. Because i know once i let myself in, it would be hard for me to escape from it since variety of feelings will fill my heart. i have read a lot of articles about this one lady. i literally admire her. how she makes herself strong infront of her son even though she is deeply broken inside. i dream to be that type of lady. a lady who doesnt want people to sympathize for what had happened, instead feel proud by the outstanding achievements that i have made after a huge problem came to my life. i want to learn on how to not depend too much on temporary love. humans can never fulfill their one promise that they have made to their loved ones. which is I will always be by your side fore ver . actually they dont. they die a few moments later. they left us here in this filthy world. so its clear enough that we should not put high hopes towards any living things. love is not everything

Assalammualaikum! well this is year is indeed the toughest year ever for now la because before this i was not that busy to the extent i need to burn my midnight oil in order to finish all the homeworks given. Besides, I even need to finish the notes that I got from eheh secret lol and do some revision for the upcoming exam. so the thing is, i feel like shouting to the whole world and say " 24 HOURS ARE NOT ENOUGH! " Maybe yes for certain people because they know how to manage their time well. but i know too! i even have the timetable that tells what i should and should not do. i spend most of my time with books ya Rabbi too tooooo exhausted i kenot. I have never had an enough sleep since school session started which was 2 weeks ago. been sleeping early and woke up at 1 or 2 in the morning just to study and sometimes doing homeworks or notes. so dont ask me why my eyebags are getting sexier because obviously now you know the exact reason whyyyy! i have to run like a crazy g